1. They say 4 AM is the most likely time to give birth
but I didn’t know when I knelt on the bathroom floor,
soaked in unwanted love
it also happens to be the most likely time to die
(some nights I can’t tell these apart)

2. I thought 24 years would teach me silence
how to talk without ripping
but your paper planes tore through my walls
whizzed past my ears like bullets
the winds brought them back as
postpartum depression / pleas
to an absent mother
that never would be me



woman in yellow tank top

I have cities
growing in my gut
deserted streets
running in my veins
when the dust breathes
through this haunted
every soul trapped in me
stirs to life
like flames
gasping for oxygen.
they whisper
and I speak.